HOLEYBALONEY

說說~~ 評評~~ 想想~~

就是不要放“五月天”這些字在標題。不然一定有很多不知明的人跑來看。討厭。

跑去看了bbs的吐槽版﹐其第一目的是看別人怎樣吐槽何耀珊這個很不要臉的丑八怪新加坡人。引述怪獸‘分析’瑪莎的話﹕“丟臉。可恥。”看了我萬分覺得它是姓[何]的恥辱。咱們的祖先啊﹗請不要哭泣。快點懲罰它吧。這世界沒有它不嫌少﹐有它嫌礙眼。

*備註﹕注意是用‘它’而非‘她’。

anyway﹐是要說五月天的。也有吐槽五月天的。當然﹐這代表他們紅。我同意。不過﹐老實說﹐他們有些說的不是沒有道理。早期的五月天﹐純朴可愛﹐有一種獨特的親和力。雖然不是五迷﹐可是有時聽到他們的歌﹐也會啦啦啦的跟著哼幾句﹐搖著頭﹐享受著輕鬆的旋律﹐簡單的歌詞。現在的五月天﹐早已變成滾石的商品﹐見他們的迷妹們捨得花﹐明星商品一個接著一個地出﹐非從他們身上撈一大筆不行。是。是可以不要買。可是你說﹐那些迷妹們會不買嗎﹖會嗎﹖屁。會就好。還不是照樣買了一個又一個。那些花綠綠的鈔票就這樣不明不白的沒了。簽唱會也搞個什麼全台灣走透透﹐搞得迷妹們到處奔波﹐CD一張張的買﹐就為了索取簽名。值得嗎﹖我最怕也最討厭就是這樣的結果。這樣跑來跑去的﹐哪裡有時間精力好好的寫出一首可以豎起拇指稱讚的作品﹖哪裡有時間精力細細的熬出一張讓人聽出耳油的專輯﹖最重要的﹐哪裡有時間讓團員自由發揮﹖讓他們自我充實﹖讓他們提高自己的技術﹖

一個最讚的樂團﹐團員在一起能創造出具爆發力﹑具吸引力﹑具影響力的音樂。團員出solo也充份顯示出個別對音樂不同的取向﹐不一樣的嚮往﹐亦能作些實驗性質的音樂讓自己開心。個別團員獨立鮮明﹐可以頂著自己的名字出專輯﹑到處演唱﹑同不同的班底合作﹐隨後回到主團時﹐團員齊心創造出好音樂﹐讓大家覺得休息分開一段日子再在一起的時候﹐大家際遇不同了﹐視野不同了﹐作出來的東西更是叫人驚艷不已。

可是我是偏心的。在我心目中﹐只有Xjapan & L’Arc~en~ciel才堪稱是樂團。其他的﹐不好意思﹐還差個十萬八千里咧。靠邊站。哈哈~~

當然我也承認﹐我想得太偉大了。不是每個國家都能像日本﹑像美國﹐唱片公司可以放手讓樂團那麼自由。

現實終究是殘酷的。
我們終究是要接受現實。
美麗的幻想終究會化為烏有。
剩下的只有我自始至終對搖滾的期待。

我莫明其妙說著說著﹐又離題了。

主流/非主流

主流與非主流之間,其實存在著一種非常微妙的關係。喜愛的非主流音樂,希望更多人認識,但又怕入流之後素質會下降。繼續讓它在非主流的框框,卻又不甘心他默默無聞。

主流真的那麽重要嗎?爲什麽曾經很讚的樂手登上主流的臺階上后嚴重變質?到底主流聽衆要何時才會清醒,明白許多流行歌手其實不過是空殼一個?我們需要做什麽才能讓迷弟迷妹們看清這些所謂偶像歌手其實是騙人的,而他們看到的80%是包裝出來的成品?

可笑的是,反觀真實可愛的非主流音樂人,他們努力奮鬥、積極向上,可是他們就是叫好不叫座。這些人要紅,需要比偶像歌手多一倍以上的運氣。他們若要紅,要讓更多人認識他們的音樂,一定要放棄很多東西。其中包括了音樂的品質、内容。有多少藝人必須放棄自己的意願,去唱個少女情懷的歌,有可能甚至包裝也是唱片公司的意思,搞得一副可愛少女樣。若不馬上紅,立刻被冷凍,前途就此完蛋。

可是非主流音樂人都有一個抱負,一個讓全世界認識到中文音樂有更好的素質。我們是可以和外國音樂人媲美的。所以他們會繼續向要成爲主流, 繼續妥協,繼續成爲主流中迷失自己的一分子。

不過可賀的是,這種熱忱、這種衝勁是會永遠存在的。長江後浪推前浪。時代會進步,非主流的音樂地帶也不停的再往前進。音樂的世界上將會永遠看到熱愛高素質音樂的人,將永遠存在著會作音樂的人。

我相信時間能證明這些人才是真正的音樂人,才真正稱得上是藝人。

降/祥 龍十八掌

他是祥龍十八掌。
我是降龍十八掌。
到底是他的祥龍十八掌厲害,還是我的降龍十八掌無敵。
可是他是祥龍,我是降龍。
降籠既能降龍,應該比祥龍勝出一籌。
可是祥龍既是祥龍,也許能逃過一劫。
所以到底是降龍勝出還是祥龍走運,
起飛之後自有分曉。

不過,我相信:
成是降龍,敗是祥龍。

XJapan

前幾天﹐我jc一個也是很喜歡搖滾的同學突然在msn問我﹐記不記得為什麼會喜歡上Xjapan。他突如其來的問題﹐我一時之間都不知道怎麼回答。

嚴格來說﹐應該是因為中三時迷上clamp的漫畫吧。X-1999﹐動畫的主題歌是Xjapan唱的。Forever Love。那時候只知道這首歌超好聽。雖然完全聽不懂主唱到底在唱些什麼﹐可是那首歌德魅力就在於他的感染力﹐讓我在根本聽不懂的情況下﹐愛上它。

到了JC﹐才知道是誰唱的。我依稀記得﹐我第一次聽到搖滾專輯是Xjapan 的Ballad Collection。第一次看到他們的Clips﹐嚇得我(當然還有我媽)半死。靠﹗﹗那是什麼裝扮啊﹗﹖﹗﹖這些人到底是男的還是女的﹖﹖那妝到底有幾層啊﹖可是最後他們的音樂(當然還有yoshiki那非人的打鼓速度)征服了我。於是便去搜尋更多他們的資料。

越是收集﹐越愛他們。yoshiki的執著﹑熱情﹐對自己要走的道路完全沒有懷疑。記得他們剛出道時﹐根本沒有唱片公司要簽他們。結果yoshiki便自己設立一間唱片製作公司﹐自己發行他們的單曲。結果大賣﹐引起各大唱片行的注意﹐才紛紛向他們招手。

xjapan的歌最大的特點就是它特別富有感情。尤其是他們的rock ballads。樂手的演奏也完全融合成一體﹐互相配合﹐相互扶持﹐製造出最完美的音樂。

可到最後我朋友又問我。

喜歡他們需要這麼多原因嗎﹖

仔細想想﹐也許﹐真的不須要。雖然老掉牙﹐可是喜歡就是喜歡嘛﹗=P

朋友 (2000年4月13日)

找一個知心的朋友﹐真的有那麼難嗎﹖﹐為什麼我看到身邊的人﹐個個稱兄道弟的﹐而我仍孤零零一個人﹐沒人給我傾訴。是我太不信任其他人嗎﹖還是我只是喜歡把心事藏起來﹐什麼事都不肯對別人講。

我好寂寞。我心裡有好多好多事﹐快壓得我喘不過氣來了。好想找一個人說﹐但找誰呢﹖我能信任誰呢﹖我不想再裝下去了。我不想有時是我﹐有時是別人。我好愧疚。

我是不是很討人厭﹖為什麼有時候有些人對我不理不睬﹖我承認我是有點‘表演欲’﹐喜歡人注意我﹐但是我已經儘量克制了。為什麼似乎沒有人願意和我作朋友﹐ 真正的朋友﹖我好孤獨﹐好寂寞。我感覺全世界的人在敷衍我﹐根本不是真心誠意的。也許﹑也許﹐是我待人不夠誠懇吧﹖但是﹐什麼才叫作待人誠懇﹖我不明白﹐ 有沒有人可以告訴我呢﹖

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這種感覺﹐到現在還偶而會浮現。就當它是種鍛煉吧。鍛煉自己﹐讓自己更堅強。

也許因為長時期這樣﹐養成了什麼事都可以假裝不聞不問的習慣。是好還是壞呢﹖

不知道。

傷害。抱歉 (1999年9月24日)

1999年9月24日寫的﹐今天突然心血來潮﹐拿出來看看﹕
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“傷害不是抱歉可以交代。。。”

聽到林曉培這首歌﹐除了喜歡她的演繹方式外﹐喜歡這句歌詞。

常常在做了對不起別人的事後﹐覺得道個歉應該就沒問題。事實上﹐真的只是‘應該’而已。i mean,傷害別人後如果隨隨便便一句sorry就可以settle整件事的話﹐就不會有這麼多人為情所困﹐自殺﹐嗜毒等。

真正想表達內疚的心情﹐不須要多加言語一舉一動都可以看得出﹐好像偶而關懷那個人﹐想盡辦法﹐by hook or by crook要彌補你的過失﹐對方瞎了眼也看得出你想的是什麼。到時﹐不必說什麼話了。

sorry這個字被濫用的非常厲害。什麼什麼芝麻綠荳的事都sorry來sorry去﹐sorry變得沒有意義。以前說對不起是真心覺得對不起﹐可是看現在﹐sorry變成一種口頭禪﹐時不時拿出來‘炫耀’一下﹐想表示自己很有禮貌﹐很有… 內涵。

放屁。

如果說sorry會讓你看起來or聽起來比較有內涵﹐我不如開口閉口都說sorry﹐其他話不用講了。什麼道理嘛。

到底要到什麼時候﹐sorry才會變成真正的sorry﹖

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靠﹗原來我在中學的時候竟然那麼full of angst。而且。。感覺上有點吳慶康。靠﹗﹗不會吧。得檢討。

可是。。真的挺可悲的。到現在﹐sorry還是一個很普通的字﹐感覺上﹐仍然沒有什麼特別不一樣的意義。it’s just another word.

Pulau – Mar 9, 2005

Aiyo… Suddenly I watch so many productions at a go. Watched Pulau with KC today. Written by How Wee & directed by Adrian Tan. Actors are Judy Ngo & Edric Hsu. Ok. Descriptions aside, here’s my set of comments.

I thought the show was ok. As in, it’s a very How Wee kind of play. Sparse, episodic and very all-over-the-place kind of style. Adrian did a semi-Brechtian. The set was a very simple circle of sand with a big screen behind and TVs at the two sides. The show was rated R(18) but alas, except for a few cheebyes and a couple of KNNs… That’s all. What R(18)?? All the sexual scenes were like Edric trying to take of Judy’s bra clasp which was so obviously a sports bra.. >< And Judy masturbating back-facing us. Ah-duh… I’ve seen more rated stuff than THAT.. Anyway, that’s not the issue.

The main thing was the talk-back session. About halfway through the session, I regretted hanging around. It totally spoilt the whole experience for me. There I was, slowly making sense and meaning out of what I had just seen and there people are asking about wanting answers to the questions raised in the play. The worst part was when Adrian said all about how he was doing a Beckett and how the columbarian was linked to the HDB flats he showed on multi-media (which I disliked tremendously) and how some of the parts were purposely made as a remembrance to KPK (not to be rude or disrespectful, but AGAIN????? ) I felt a sense of losing as I was listening to all these questions and “answers”. Instead of gaining some insight into the play, I felt as if I had lost the crux of the matter and the main issue and the strand of thought. I had been deprived of the ability to think for myself, to allow myself to discover new things about the play that may add to my appreciation of it. Alas, the talk-back session effectively killed all that.

Judy’s acting was not bad. Pretty good. But I hate it when she contorts her face when she’s crying. It feels too over-acting and very fakish to me. Edric, sad to say, was the weakest between the two fo them. He was very stiff and fluffed his lines, though fluffing lines can be due to nerves. He was not captivating and often when it’s his long speech alone, he makes me feel restless and distracted.

All that aside, it was fun meeting old friends there. Was amazed & amused to see Terence though (almost didn’t recognise him at first ‘cos didn’t expect him to be at a CHINESE play). Never thought he could understand chinese. Hur hur. And I saw Qing Shui (I think that’s his name…) which was a pleasant surprise ‘cos I hadn’t seen him since the AJ CLDDS Alumni performance I think.

Errorism – Mar 8, 2005

I can’t decide who I like better. Baobao’s or Zai’s.

Baobao’s piece was easy to understand. Well, maybe I am quite used to her style of presentation so I know what she wants to show when she does certain things. And the baby part just seems so familiar. Maybe she’s done something like this before, maybe it’s so much her style. But what I feel was not enough about her performance is that she could have pushed the audience more. There were certain parts where I felt a tug at my heart but it stopped at that. If Baobao went further, it would have made me cry. The emotion would have been deeper and I would have felt more for the piece. I like the comic relief and the sound bites though. It’s a good bite at those silly things politicians say about the Iraq war. However, the audience was a bit too cold. I mean, some of us felt that the MacDonald’s & Coca-cola parts were really funny, as well as the “It’s nothing like show business” song & politician part. But the only people who laughed or even giggled were me, Melvin, Yati & Seok Ai. Well, maybe those at the top did but WTH..

On the other hand, Zai’s piece was really abstract. He started off the piece by flashing a slideshow of the poem “To the Reader” by Charles Baudelaire. Then all he did was walk around the stage, went on the platform and basically moved in ultra slow-motion, sometimes smashing chairs, sometimes snarling and growling, sometimes romoving his clothes and touching himself. It made absolutely no sense at all iitially. The only thing was that the sound was deafeningly loud and because I was sitting near the sub-woofers, the bass made my heart thump ever so terribly. I swore my eardrums would burst if I sat there for another 15mins. I kept waiting. Waiting for him to do something. To show me some meaning of what he is doing. Anything at all. At the end of his piece, he finally went to the pot, which had water dripping into it from the grids and the sound captured with a condensor, took it up and drak the water that was dripping from the top. Then Yuen Chee Wai came over, both took off their belts and all he did was to drop the metal part into the pot, making a very loud and crisp sound. But the ending slideshow came and I finally understood what he was doing. He was simply re-enacting all that was written in the poem. And the root of all evil, it seems, is not money. It simply is BOREDOM.

Thanks to Mel who accompanied me to watch this amazing performance. And hello to Yati who I met there. Damn. Forgot to get hp number. Well, we’ll meet again. And hi again to Seok Ai, Kong Hui, Catherine, Heng Leun, Simin & KC whom I met there. ^__^

What Big Bombs You Have

Yaay! The show has ended!! Even with the lights problems, I guess it went well. The rest of the shows were almost all perfect shows with no big problems at all. So here are my usual thank Yous!

Wow. It’s going to be really short cos there are only so few production people!!! Haha.

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Joanna – Hur hur. I got very good karma one. Ha ha.

Shelia – You little abused child you. Tiger Balm really very powderful right? It’s my secret weapon leh.

Hidayah – Your crazy antics and laughter really made the production more fun to be in. I won’t forget the ‘Chi Hua Hua’ and the ‘Hu Lao Lao’..

Jed – Aiyoh. I never met anyone more lame than you man. But I am really amazed you like tofu toys. I rarely meet (ok. Make that never) a guy who collects tofu toys like crazy.

Vivianne – So the Mr Lim thing didn’t work out ah? Not noisy enough for you issit? Tell us what type you like we matchmake for you. Hahhahahaha!

Sook Fong – This time is you at the board with me ah, not hidden behind the curtains. We had leg strengthening exercises for 1.5 hours twice a day. I think I very fit now.

Nic – Free 1 whole bar of chocolate ah. Such a good deal. Though i don’t understand why you like white chocolate so much.

Hossan – This is like the 3rd time we worked together? I will miss you.. and your plunger. But I will probably miss your plunger more.

Enlai – Wah lauz. You and your diva-ish nonsense. Haha! And I would have fainted if I was the one who saw you about to shit. Anyway, “Enlai, when was the last time you had sex?”

Chermaine – I always very nice one leh. Not to you only. Haha.

Alin – “Eh Mamak” “Should I use green or red cherries for the gingerbread man’s nose?” I love your humor and neverending joy that you give to everyone around you!!!

Gene – You really love to sing. Or you sing before every show to just warm up? ^_~

Days of Our Lives

Well, technically this post has got nothing to do with that never-ending soap opera. This is more like my ranting post.

“What Big Bombs You Have” is ending soon. Tomorrow night to be exact. Well, the show is really tiring cos a lot of concentration and energy is needed for every show but to be really truthful, I enjoyed it. It’s one of those small tight team where everyone is comfortable with each other and conflict is tried to be kept at a minimum. Tried is the key. There was tension definitely & inevitably but I guess everybody kept their cool and no screaming battles ensued.

Working with Hossan, Enlai, Chermaine & Alin was amazingly great. The atmosphere was relaxed and generally happy. We cracked jokes about other people, they entertained us and really, it was fun. I can’t exactly say the same for Gene though. I mean, I try not to be biased but geez. How boring can a man get? How terribly so? He tells a joke and laughs at it himself, when nobody thinks its funny. During the talkback sessions, when he’s asked a question, he goes totally off-tangent and talks about absolutely irrelevant things. Even Sook Fong & Joel can’t stand him. And they have only seen him in action for what? Less than a week??? If everybody thinks so, it’s not my problem. Or is it?

The Esplanade lights cock-up news has traveled far. Even Zhiwei knows about it from Huiling. Gee. Their reputation as world-class theatre venue has probably dropped a couple of notches. I am going to reiterate the incident, since I never blogged about it. Anyway, on the opening afternoon, there was already a couple of lights that were out of focus, and at the wrong spot or went to blackout instead of dimming. But the worst thing was that in the evening, the board could not even work. There was officially no lights. They brought in a backup light board and still nothing. Finally, it was decided that the night show would be cancelled and this information was passed to the audience and arrangements were made for them to either watch the Adolf-Anthology double bill or to come back if we have an extra show this Sunday night. So that’s settled.

The next day, we were told that the lights were fixed and they found the problem. Apparently they stayed till 1am in the morning to fix that. Jo did a cue-to-cue and it seemed really alright. So we happily started show#2. To our horror, 3/4 into the show, the lights on the stage right half went totally off. Nothing could work. In the end, we had to survive with only half the lights. The only partially redeeming part was that the final part of the show was basically pretty much concentrated on the stage left side, which was partly lit. When the show was over, Nat practically screamed her head off at Yadi, the lighting guy. A mini-screaming battle started.

I wouldn’t say any of them was in the wrong for the battle because I understand Nat’s frustration of having the lights fail trice in a row. However, Yadi did try his best to help salvage the situation. All those over the cans heard him and Jo trying to fix the problem or at least find some ways to give more lights to the stage. Both were caught in the situation where they were so frustrated and stressed that anything could just break their patience. In the end, Shiyun came round and got the full story. Apparently, they route from the lighting board to the dimmer through this equipment, which Shiyun didn’t say, and it’s that equipment which was faulty, both during the cancelled show as well as the current show. Shiyun told them to just go directly from board to dimmer and not through that equipment, lest it faults again. Of course Nat went to apologise to Yadi and all seemed well in the end. Well, at least on the outside.

That’s the story of the faulty lights. We met Shaoann today and he was telling us how it always happens. Either it’s the power or the dimmer trip or something. We begin to wonder if Esplanade is really world-class. How world-class can we be if such things happen all the time. Not to mention the roof still leaks after so many years.

Anyway, my usual Thank you post will be coming up.. Monday I suppose…